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For the past week, I've been stuck on an important piece of writing -- the difficulty exacerbated, in this instance, by the limited word count: I'm a rambler, and though I do always try to revise my formal writing to a state of acceptable concision, word limits annoy and unnerve me. The submission deadline is approaching, and my anxiety levels have been rising accordingly. I've been plugging away at this thing every day, realizing slowly that I need to delete paragraphs, move paragraphs, preview this theme, follow up on that idea. The draft has been getting longer and longer as I try new ways to phrase explanations and assertions and then dither about which one's best. I haven't always been able to produce coherent sentences; sometimes I just add notes. When I opened the file this morning, the draft was an ugly sprawling mess.

But I went back and re-read my most trusted reader's latest feedback, and I finally saw what she was getting at, and it showed me the start of a path through the mess. Two hours of work later, the draft is finally taking shape: it has a clear statement of purpose, a concrete proposal, a meaningful development of ideas, a strong conclusion. And it sounds like me: wry, sometimes cranky, but fundamentally optimistic.

What I have to remember is that this is not a miracle, not mere inspiration; this is the logical if too often delayed outcome of spending time with my writing, working on it every day, working on it even when I feel hopeless about it, and then letting myself see it from a new perspective, change it, let go of what I thought my point was when I discover what my point really is. What I have to remember is that all the bad days become good days once I find out what they were for, what they were teaching me.

It's slow, and it's frustrating, but it's the only way I ever get this work done.

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It's the second week of October and I'm already behind. I am so done with 2014. (If only it were done with me.)

Reactions and spoilers under the cuts!

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*eyes calendar*

I would explain why I've been essentially offline for the last two-plus weeks, but that would be boring for you and painful for me, so instead I will summarize by saying that I spent most of September humming part of The Gaslight Anthem's "1,000 Years" grimly to myself:
I heard about a woman once
who did everything ever asked of her
she died last week and her last words were:
It wasn't worth it.
Plus I haven't watched any of the season premieres yet (not even Sleepy Hollow!); I've been avoiding DW/LJ so as not to be tempted by spoilers. But I'm hoping to catch up tonight whilst folding laundry, and tomorrow... well, tomorrow I have to plant garlic in the afternoon, but I might spend the morning curled up with the laptop drinking tea and scrolling back through the last two weeks of my reading lists.

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Without abandoning his exalted sense of calling, the dedication that filled his life and took him away from many normal human contacts, [Rilke] renewed his sense of the artist as craftsman and laborer, sustained by a tradition stretching back through the middle ages and into the classical world. The artist and poet were priests, perhaps, but they were workers too, who had to use their hands, put in long hours, and exhaust themselve with physical effort. . . . [Rilke's] utmost delight is to mix the earthly and the otherworldly inextricably together.
— David Young, from the introduction

Fall Day

Lord: it's time. Summer was very large.
Lay your shadow on the sundials now
and let the winds loose in the meadows.

Tell the last fruits they must be full;
give them two more perfect southern days,
force them to completion and then chase
their last sweetness into the heavy wine.

Who has no house now won't be building one.
Who is alone will stay that way for long,
will waken, read, write lengthy letters
and wander, restless, up and down
the avenues when leaves are blowing.


— Rainer Maria Rilke
from The Book of Fresh Beginnings: Selected Poems
translated by David Young


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buried under pile of student papers

send help

or chocolate

or booze

booze would be good

I mean don't get me wrong

I love these students

but seriously this is a lot of papers

who assigned them all this fucking writing

oh wait

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So I've been browsing around in The Fan Fiction Studies Reader, as one does, and I was really struck by Sara Gwenllian Jones's essay "The Sex Lives of Cult Television Characters" (2002).

For starters, I found myself nodding along with much of the overall argument, which is basically that slash isn't necessarily a resistant or oppositional reading of media texts, because many of the genre shows that fans gravitate toward are inherently queer, in their narrative dynamics if nothing else. Here's the logic: Heterosexuality is a problem for genre TV because heterosexuality comes with narrative baggage (marriage! domesticity! reproduction!) that is antithetical to genre TV, whose imperatives are "fantasy, adventure, and the sustained virtuality of an exotic fictional world" (126). As soon as a het couple moves beyond courtship, the narrative baggage of het romance starts to threaten the anti-realism of genre fiction. So heterosexual attraction usually either doesn't get resolved OR, if it is, it's then stymied in some way (see: Buffy/Angel, John/Aeryn).
In contrast, Xena can share her life and, the series strongly suggests, a lesbian relationship with Gabrielle and still remain a nomadic warrior, forever moving from adventure to adventure.... [H]er relationship with Gabrielle endures because it does not trigger the same trajectory towards domestic stasis.... a trajectory that leads straight back to a material and mundane world, the erasure of which is the very thing that makes the cult series compelling. (126-27)
So, for Jones, slash pairings are really "extensions of cult television's own contra-straight logics": "successful primary relationships in cult television series... are either thwarted heterosexual relationships or same-sex pairings" (127).

You guys, I have so many thoughts about this! ...none of which are actually about slash, because I am contrary like that. thoughts about Arrow and CastleCollapse )

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In conclusion, yay geekery. :D

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Long day, late dinner. The sun was well down by the time I checked the weather -- and there it was, first frost advisory of the season, a few days ahead of schedule.

Outside, the wind was quiet and the yard was dark. I held the flashlight between my teeth as I snipped the stems of serrano and poblano chiles, bright red frying peppers, yellow peppers with a blush of green still on the shady side, a few small cucumbers. Then the sheets: fitted sheets to tuck around the basil and chard, flat sheets for the peppers and melons and raspberries, pillowcases for oregano, rosemary, sage, tarragon, parsley, lavender, mint, thyme. One more fitted sheet for the Sara's Galapagos tomato plant, still flowering and fruiting as if it's in the tropics where it belongs. The leeks won't mind a touch of frost; the parsnips have been waiting for it all summer; the remaining shell beans will have to fend for themselves.

Back inside, I set the trug of vegetables on a low shelf for the cats to inspect, washed my hands, made tea, and assembled supplies: compost bag set in a large bowl, clean plates covered with clean kitchen towels. And then I shelled the Yellow Indian Woman beans I picked this morning, saving the best for next spring's planting, sorting the rest: most ready for storage, a few not yet dry. Toby purred on my lap; Theo demanded a bean pod to play with.

And now it's later still. The dry beans have joined last week's harvest in their glass jar to wait for winter soups; the halfway beans are drying on their cloth-covered plate, safely out of the way of curious cats. Having tucked in the garden for the night, I should put myself to bed as well.

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[personal profile] grammarwoman and vonniek prompted: Talk about a comment or review that made your day.

So I have to start by saying that pretty much any comment or review makes my day. Hell, AO3 notifications of kudos improve my day immensely; anything with text is a bonus. That said, some comments and reviews go above and beyond, and I have been blessed beyond deserving in this regard, to the point that I can't pick just one. Here are a few that stand out:

1) When [personal profile] luminosity talked about Superstar at VVC 2003 vid review, that basically made my YEAR. She pointed out so many things I'd worked so hard on -- many of which I'd learned at her panel on motion at VVC 2002. It remains of the most gratifying experiences in my vidding career.

2) [personal profile] sdwolfpup and [personal profile] shati sent me emails about New Frontier that I still re-read, all these years later, when I am stuck in the doldrums of I suck this vid sucks I will never do anything worthwhile again. They just *got* what I was doing -- they explained the vid back to me with such insight, and they gave me such a clear sense of why the vid resonated with them... It was amazing.

3) 12_12_12's feedback on People Get Ready was the gift that kept on giving: first she beta'ed the vid (and made it SO MUCH BETTER omg), then she sent fb after I posted it, and then she turned it into a review. With VISUAL AIDS. Still not over it.

4) sisabet's audio commentary on Out Here is funny and insightful and moving and fills me with joy and reminds me why I made the damn vid in the first place.

5) [personal profile] killabeez's commentary on The Test is amazing in its own right but especially gratifying for me personally because, I mean, she's KILLA. She made "Dante's Prayer." She is THE Trek vidder for me. So the fact that she liked the vid was extra-meaningful, and the amount of insight that she brought to both the thematic and technical aspects of the vid was not even slightly surprising but profoundly gratifying.

Full list of questions is here.

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I am slowly-but-steadily working my way through that vidding meme (thank you to everyone who asked questions!), but tonight I am up past my bedtime not because I've been thinking about vidding but because I've been reading student papers, and they are delightful and remind me why I love my job.

I am so, so lucky.

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Part of what's so heartbreaking about this poem is the way that Hacker, who has as much control over blank verse as any living poet I can think of, begins it in iambic pentameter and then lets the lines stop short or tip out of meter, recovers, and then loses the meter again, as grief itself sometimes catches us off guard.

Paragraph

Another morning opens up its hand
on loss and possibility at once.
Your face is wrinkled. The blank page is lined.
A year turned over in its furrows; months
narrowed the light, which now has widened
three weeks past solstice, lengthening beyond
the cloudbank or the elegy,
the unlucky anniversary.
The father who outlived his daughter writes
something about the snow
which covered the cow pasture in last night's
sub-zero freeze. The four-New-Year's-ago
manuscript's a book—cold as a monument, the daughter
who outlived her father thinks. Outside her study window
blackbirds preen on iridescent water.


— Marilyn Hacker
from Names

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[personal profile] grammarwoman and [personal profile] luminosity asked: Which vid was the hardest to make?

Is it a cop-out to say that different vids have been hard for different reasons? Superstar was hard because that's the vid during which I started thinking in radically different ways about my mental approach to vidding. Cat Scan Hist'ry was hard because I was so paralyzed after finishing Superstar, and also because I was trying something very new with my process -- which was a good thing to do, and ultimately paid off, but it involved a LOT of getting stuck along the way.

But -- hmm. I think probably hardest overall was The Test, because it was a perfect storm of so many frustrations. I had to figure out how I wanted it to look and then figure out how to make it look like that. (Effects: not my comfort zone.) I had to work out how to take what was at that point a fairly familiar but still rather complicated story and convey it visually. I had to navigate endless technical difficulties. And then I made the mistake of watching a vid that was quite similar narratively and thematically, and beautifully executed to boot, and it made everything I'd done so far feel completely redundant and stupid; I had a huge meltdown about it and was a mess for days.

A lot of my vids get made in a few intense bursts of activity, but The Test was a slog: I worked on it every week, nearly every day, for months, drafting and revising and working on the effects and tweaking tiny fiddly things that just didn't look quite right. I could never have finished it without [personal profile] renenet, [personal profile] killabeez, [personal profile] fan_eunice, and [personal profile] f1renze; without Killa, I'm not even sure I would have had the guts to begin.

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1. I've been social two evenings in a row, which is unusual for me: went to a rather large party at a friend's house last night, and had two new friends over for dinner and conversation tonight (pesto pizza with yellow peppers, fruit salad, brownies with mint ice cream). I'm feeling very grateful that tomorrow I can work in my garden and then come inside and hole up in my house and not talk to anyone all day. Heh.

2. I'm taking another Tumblr hiatus, partly because Glee spoilers are getting ever harder to avoid (I clicked through to a fic post and there was a spoiler in the author's sidebar, argh) and partly because I want to use that time for vidding. I've been pretty good about making time for vidding lately, but it's mostly been sous chef stuff, prep work; I need to get past the clipping stage and into the editing stage, and something's got to give. Tumblr's the logical thing to lose.

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flaming_muse and [personal profile] grammarwoman prompted: Point to a section from one of your favorite vids you've made and explain why you're proud of it.

Given yesterday's answer, I suppose nobody will be surprised that I'm going to pick New Frontier. I'm proud of... pretty much everything about this vid, for one reason or another, but I will single out:

1. the opening sequence, especially the shot of the ship's shadow that begins at 0:13, because I am so pleased about it both technically (I got the timing right!) and rhetorically: the new frontiers, beginning with the departure from earth and culminating in... River.

2. the instrumental bridge starting at 2:21, especially the first bit up to 2:30. I spent so long being afraid of instrumental sections and cutting them out, and in this vid I really think I made them work. I love the way all the corresponding bits of motion in the clips look when juxtaposed.

3. the end of that instrumental section and first part of the next one, starting at 2:38 and going through 2:55 -- the forward rush, the fighting back. I wasn't sure, when I started the vid, how I wanted this section to look, but I knew how I wanted it to feel, and I think I got it. Part of what I love about it now, in retrospect, is that so many people's responses to that section indicated that they grasped the essential juxtaposition I was aiming at: River and Serenity, both spinning, both damaged, both weapons.

I could also have singled out Superstar (0:44-1:05, 1:10-1:17, 1:24-1:32, 1:48-1:50, 2:07-2:16), The Test (1:00-1:20, 2:16-2:24, 2:27-2:38, 3:01-3:23), or Sea Fever (basically the whole thing, which is part of why I didn't choose it). But I think that's enough self-indulgence for one evening. :D


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jarrow asked: If you only could vid one show/movie for the rest of your life, which show/movie would it be? (and why!)

I'm going to go with my first instinct and say Firefly. In some ways this is a dumb decision; a half-season and a movie isn't nothing, but it's a far cry from ten or seven or even five seasons of a show. Buffy would probably be a smarter choice, both because of the amount of source and because at the moment I have four Buffy ideas and only one Firefly.

But the thing is, Firefly is the show that I keep thinking I'm done with... and then I get hit with a new idea. It's the show that I've vidded the most steadily, as well as the most often, over the last ten years. I've made more Buffy vids, but I made them all at once in the space of 18 months more than a decade ago now. So... yeah. Firefly.

I'm really glad this question is hypothetical. Firefly is the show of my heart, but it turns out that my heart is pretty capacious -- it holds a lot of other shows as well.

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...but it's a happy farewell, I promise!

Some of you may recall that when I was away from home last spring I took Toby and Theo along with me while The Grumpy Plushie stayed behind with my housesitter. He and his fiancee both took a liking to The GP, and she in turn became very fond of them. She also became VERY fond of having TWO minions and NO annoying boy cats around. So when the boys and I came home, I discovered that, alas, she was 5000% done with all of us. I mean, she was still a very sweet cat, but she was mad at the boys ALL THE TIME and mad at me for bringing them back. It was not a happy situation.

I told my housesitter, only half-joking, that he could have The GP if he wanted her. And he and his fiancee consulted and said they would LOVE to have her. So after they moved into their new house, I took The GP over, expecting that there would be at least a bit of initial hiding under or behind things.

Nope.

We let her out of the carrier; she took a few tentative steps out of it, looked around, and then promptly trotted off, tail held high, to investigate everything. She worked her way about halfway round the house and ended up back in the living room en route to the other half. We took her into the kitchen to show her where her dishes were, and then down to the basement to see the litter box. She did a bit more exploring... and then she came back to the living room to sprawl on the floor and purr, looking utterly pleased with herself. As well she might: there are NO BOY KITTIES and TWO MINIONS in a house that is ALL HERS and has EXCELLENT WINDOWSILLS.

I am fond of The GP and will miss her, but I am thrilled that I was able, at long last, to provide her with the solo-cat home and adoring humans that she deserves. Reports suggest that she has spent the last several days lolling around in sunbeams purring and being petted, which I think is exactly as it should be.

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vonniek and [personal profile] kiki_miserychic asked: How many vid ideas are you nurturing right now? Care to share one of them?

Ahahahaha. Well. Let's see. *consults playlist and notes*

I have:
  • twelve ideas that are actively begging for attention right now,
  • eight ideas that I fully intend to make but am in no rush to get around to (the Middleman vid was in this category until three months ago, so hey, you never know),
  • thirteen ideas that I would like to exist but that I may or may not ever exert myself to make,
  • one Star Trek reboot LKBV that I am 98% sure I will never make but that I leave on the vids-to-be playlist because just seeing it there makes me laugh, and
  • one idea in search of a song, except it's not really so much an idea as a sort of free-floating desire to make an Arrow ensemble vid, preferably for Club Vivid.

Oh, and I have a Star Trek reboot vid that's probably 2/3 done; I started it before I started working on The Test, but after I finished The Test I just sort of stopped caring about finishing the first one. For a while I nurtured the hope that the second reboot 'verse movie would get me interested again, but that... didn't happen.

Of the twelve active ideas, six have timelines with stuff on them; five of those six are complete jumbles (the vid equivalents of pre-draft notes), and one is probably 3/4 done, although there are big chunks of it I will probably end up rethinking and revising. And I really need to get back to it, since I am not, for the moment, fighting the vagaries of open canon.

Full list of questions is here.

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[personal profile] kiki_miserychic asked: Is there a genre or style you wouldn't touch with a ten foot pole?

Hmmm. There's definitely stuff I can't see myself vidding, but the cause would be content rather than genre/style -- for example, I am a total wimp about gore, and quite content to be so. I doubt I'll ever vid really cracky comedy, but it's not because I wouldn't, it's because I've never had that kind of vid idea. (But hey, I thought I'd never make an effects-heavy vid, either, and then I did, so what do I know.)

Though, okay, thinking about effects, there is a particular style of very effects-heavy vid that I will probably never make -- it's an aesthetic I see primarily though not exclusively in YouTube vids: heavily saturated color (sometimes combined with black and white or radically desaturated clips), blown-out contrast, lots of glow, lots of dissolves, lots of overlays and especially overlaid textures. I have seen some vids using this visual style that I like very much, so "wouldn't touch with a ten-foot pole" isn't really the right description, but it's not a style I can imagine adopting for myself, partly because it feels like a language that I don't know how to speak (my well-established "How did you know to do that?" problem), but also because so much of my approach to vidding is grounded in getting out of the way and letting the clips and the music do the work. That used to be the only thing I knew how to do, but as I've expanded my skill set it's become more of a deliberate choice -- certainly not the only way of doing things, not even the only way that *I* do things, but the choice that feels right for the kinds of vids I usually make. I do have some ideas on tap that might have me diving back into AfterEffects, but I don't think I'd be using quite those types of effects or combining them in the ways I sometimes see them combined.

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[personal profile] goodbyebird and [personal profile] kiki_miserychic asked: How many times do you usually revise your vid before posting?

This is a surprisingly complicated question to answer! My answer depends partly on how much time I have and partly on how complex the vid is.

I make lots of changes/additions/deletions on the way to a full (or mostly-full) draft; I would consider that part of the drafting process rather than revision. I export that draft and watch it a bunch of times and typically do a round or two of revisions on my own.

Then I get one or two people to beta it, and what I do next depends on what they say and how much time I have: maybe just minor tweaks, maybe a complete rethinking of what I'm doing, maybe a major overhaul of one specific verse or section. Then I check back with the beta(s) to make sure I didn't accidentally make things worse. (Yes, that's happened. More than once.) Lather, rinse, repeat as necessary.

If I'm having trouble with a particular section (usually the bridge or the ending), I may throw myself on the mercy of yet another beta to help me sort through what's going on with that section.

Once I'm sure the clips and the basic cuts are right, I export yet again and watch with an eye for really picky details of timing, color, etc. If it's a major project and I'm not running up against a deadline, I may call in someone else to check that stuff with me.

So I guess my answer is: at least three times, often six to eight times, not infrequently 18+ times.

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[personal profile] killabeez asked: Describe your comfort zone—a typical you-vid and Is there a genre or style you've yet to try your hand at, but really want to?

I would say that I have two typical me-vids. The first is vids that sit at the intersection of 'ship vid and character study: vids that are about one character's idiosyncratic and not entirely reliable perception of the relationship and what it means to them. I've made at least twelve vids that fall pretty solidly into this category, arguably more if you squint. The second is ensemble vids -- sometimes full ensemble, sometimes partial ensemble -- which usually turn out to be about characters being capable of more than they knew. (...though, okay, that is also a theme that runs through a lot of my non-ensemble vids as well.) I've made seven vids I'd describe this way.

As for genre and style... oh man. I would love to make a straight-up comedy vid one day. If lapillus ever remasters her Mulder/Krycek vids, I might steal all the clips and make an M/K vid to The Junkers' "Let's Commit Adultery." I don't know if anyone else would find it funny, but the version in my head is hilarious.

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