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As I said in my previous post, I liked a lot of things about the Glee finale. I also had some pretty serious reservations about it, partly because of the ep itself and partly of how the ep played into current/recent national conversations (and silences) about queer civil rights.

This post resonated with some of what I was thinking about, but it turns out I had more to say.

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I am not immune to the lure of a happy ending. I wanted a happy ending for Kurt and Blaine, and I’m glad -- truly, deeply glad -- that we got one. But I also believe that it’s worth thinking about why we, and the characters, and the show, define happy ending the way we do.

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These eps aired at a point in the semester when I did not have the time or brainpower to really sort through my reactions. So: belated post is belated. I am hoping that [personal profile] grammarwoman, [personal profile] kouredios, [personal profile] sanj, and others will still come play in the comments. :D

This post is about the episodes themselves. I have other thoughts about the implications of the final episode that will get their own post.

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My investment in this show and these characters, especially Kurt and Blaine, is something I didn't see coming, and it's something I'm ultimately very grateful for. I will miss the show at its best, and I will miss these actors in these roles. I already miss being head-over-heels for a canonical pairing in a currently-airing show; that's a joy I hadn't had for years before I started watching Glee, and it's not something I take lightly.

But this season has shown me, quite definitively, that the writers and I have fundamentally different ideas about what a show with this premise should really be about, and there was less and less overlap between our ideas as the seasons ticked by.

So I'm ready for the show to end. I'm ready to have closed canon so that I can focus on the things that I have loved about it.

And now that I know where the show ends, I'm also ready to go back to the parts of Kurt and Blaine's story that I struggled with and to work through that struggle by vidding. I've made more progress on my open timelines in the last couple of months than I had in the previous year, and that feels really good.

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One of the things I found myself thinking about, as I watched the last eps of The 100 S2, is that it feels like a long time since I've been invested in a straight-up SF show. And then I thought, no, that's silly -- I just finished watching Sense8! And I've been watching Orphan Black! And some of my other genre shows, like The Flash or Agent Carter, have science-fictional bits to them.

But those shows push other buttons for me. I thoroughly enjoyed Sense8, but in a lot of ways the SFnal premise is the least important part of it, for me; it's the ignition switch, but it's not what keeps the thing running, not really. Sense8 is a found-family show, for me, and so is Orphan Black; and while SF and found family go together like chocolate and extra-delicious peanut butter (Firefly, Farscape, Heroes at its best, etc. etc.) they don't always carry the same weight in terms of how I respond to a show. This is true of Firefly, too, actually; I love the SF setting of that show, but the characters always mattered more. Whereas in The 100, the characters are not extricable from the SFnal premise and situations that they occupy. Like, I try to picture these characters in a coffee-house AU and my mind just rebels. Unless it's a coffeehouse in space. With a lot of shit blowing up.

Anyway! Here are two (non-plot-spoilery) things I love about The 100, right now, the day after watching the finale of S2:
  1. This is an SF show that is consistently about ethics -- like, at a molecular level, starting with the otherwise-not-that-awesome pilot ep. My very favorite flavor of televisual SF is SF that, as I wrote in a post about Fringe from several years ago now, explores the question of What Is The Right Thing To Do, especially in a situation poisoned by other people's bad decisions. What is the best choice in a situation where there may not be any good choices left? This is a question The 100 asks again and again, and it is not afraid to put Our Heroes in situations where the answers are riveting but not reassuring.

  2. A corollary: This is a show in which decisions have consequences -- sometimes very big, very damaging consequences. This, too, is a huge part of what I loved about Farscape, about Sarah Connor Chronicles, and about Fringe. (And about BSG, for that matter, back in the early seasons before the show exhausted my ability to care about it.)


There are other things I love about The 100, too, including the remarkable roster of varied and interesting female characters and several of the platonic female and mixed-sex relationships on the show. (I have a post brewing about how the S2 finale had some interesting things in common with the ending of Mad Max: Fury Road.) But I do not have the brainpower to make those posts right now. Mostly I just want people to watch the show. And if this post is not persuasive enough, I strongly recommend checking out [personal profile] jarrow's VVC Premieres vid, Warriors, which is REALLY GOOD and a fantastic peek at some of the show's key characters, conflicts, and themes.

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nonspoilery reaction under the cutCollapse )

And now I need to go watch jarrow's vid!!!

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nonspoilery reaction under the cutCollapse )

ETA: comments on both posts now verge on the spoilery, though no plot specifics are mentioned.

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A few (ha!) notes, more or less in chronological order:

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In conclusion, I really love VividCon.

Panel and vidshow notes coming soon!

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Toby (from all the way across the house): Biped!
h.l: I'm in here, Toby.
Toby (from slightly closer): Biped!
h.l: In the study, Toby.
Toby (from the next room): Biped!
h.l: Are we playing Marco Polo?
Toby (from the doorway): Biped!
h.l: Why are we playing Marco Polo?
Toby (from right next to the chair): Biped!
h.l: I AM RIGHT HERE WHERE YOU LEFT ME TWENTY MINUTES AGO.
Toby: You might not be! You were gone for DAYS.
h.l: ...I know, buddy. I'm sorry.
Toby: DAYS AND DAYS.
h.l: ...and now you have to check on me.
Toby: YES.
h.l: Constantly.
Toby: YES.
h.l: ...okay.
Toby: ALSO I NEED SNUGGLES.
h.l: If I go sit on the couch and watch the VividCon DVDs so you can have a lap, will that at all reconcile you to my having been gone for a week?
Toby: I'm not sure.
h.l: Okay.
Toby: We should test that hypothesis. For science.
h.l: Mm-hmm.


Notes from the con coming this weekend!

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For [personal profile] lilacsigil and [personal profile] st_aurafina: These are the eggplants (and peas and beans) mentioned in my previous post:

07-27 harvest

From the left, the varieties are Rosa Bianca, Clara, and Ping Tung.

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As [personal profile] renenet has observed more than once this summer, my penchant for preposterous vegetables continues unabated. :D

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1. I just swapped out my old (well, okay, not THAT old) SSD boot drive on the vidding computer for a higher-capacity drive and it was without doubt the least stressful, most hassle-free computer upgrade I have EVER done. Cloning and installation took less than 45 minutes. Good job, Samsung.

2. Doing the swap involved opening up the case for the first time in a while, and wow, I have NEVER opened a computer case to find so little cat hair. I freely admit that I do not keep an especially clean house and the dust buffalos of cat fur roam unhindered across the hardwood floors, but this case is remarkably fur-proof. Also, I've had it for almost three years and I am still not over how freaking quiet it is. Not cheap, but worth every penny (and a pleasure to build in, as well.) Good job, Antec.

3. Harvest today: a bowl of sugar snap peas and two kinds of beans for snacking, plus three kinds of eggplant -- including a Rosa Bianca, which I ate for dinner: sauteed in olive oil with parsley and garlic scapes (also from the garden) and tossed with pasta, with toasted pine nuts on top. Growing my own eggplant means never having to salt them! BLISS.

4. The vinho verde I had with dinner was awesome (and even better at $5.50 a bottle).

5. For dessert: goat cheese ice cream with roasted cherries. [personal profile] renenet laughed and laughed at me when I told her I was planning it, but I am very happy with my fancy-schmancy ice cream. SO THERE.

6. VividCon is coming! I want a Spock llama t-shirt! And possibly also a mug!

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You guys, I saw Darren Criss in Hedwig and the Angry Inch on Wednesday night. Short version: the show was fantastic and Darren was brilliant -- mesmerizing, even, as at least one reviewer has said.

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So that was that, and it was totally worth all the chaos and stress and expense. Hurrah for demented fangirl enthusiasms!

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Time for a numbered list!
  1. London was awesome -- I am not going to write up shows this time around, but those few of you who are actually interested in my surfeit of theatre can ask me questions and I will answer. Also, I ate really well this trip and walked even more than usual (the weather was perfect for it); my companion and I chose to walk basically everywhere rather than dealing with buses or the underground, plus we had a lovely four-mile ramble around Hampstead Heath and shorter walks around sundry parks in central London. Really, really happy making.

  2. I got home, had a few days to recover, and then had a houseguest -- a dear friend whom I don't see nearly often enough and who hadn't yet stayed at my little house or met the cats -- and we hung out and talked and ate stuff from my garden and went for a long walk to test out my new hiking boots and compared notes on recent reading (oh god now I have *more* books to read) and generally had a lovely time.

  3. And then I basically spent a week weeding my garden, because dear god the weeds. THE WEEDS.

  4. I watched all of Empire in just over a week and, to the surprise of nobody, really like it. I fell for Jamal, and by extension the show, exactly seven minutes into the first ep: "What is this, we King Lear now?" TAKE MY HEART. TAKE IT. Also, I love Cookie. Bonus: the show makes terrific use of "Conqueror," my favorite song off Estelle's new album. I might not get around to posting about the show until S2, so I will just say as a placeholder that a) I am so happy to be watching another show about music and creative ambition, and b) I love the show's attention to the complexity of queerness and homophobia in Black communities.

  5. I'm now a few eps into Sense8 and really liking it too. The premise is pretty cool (and getting more complicated), and the show is gorgeous (I am waiting for a vidsong to show up!), but it's the characters who are really delighting me. Sun! Capheus! Nomi & Amanita! Lito & Hernando! Kala! ♥

But the big news is that I've thrown together a spontaneous whirlwind trip to NYC to see Darren Criss in Hedwig and the Angry Inch on Broadway this week. I am no stranger to fannish pilgrimages -- I have done more than my fair share of driving absurd distances to see bands in concert, because music is life, and as [personal profile] coffeeandink reminded me, I did a three-hour drive with her and [personal profile] renenet to see a preview screening of Serenity, more than ten years ago, dear god, where does the time go -- but those trips are usually a) planned well in advance and b) do not involve *quite* this much travel. I long for a teleporter.

But I have purchased a ticket to the show and cashed in my frequent flyer miles; thanks to the kindness of [personal profile] astolat I have a place to stay; [personal profile] coffeeandink is meeting me for dinner; there's a Kandinsky exhibit at the Guggenheim; and did I mention that holy shit I am seeing Darren Criss in Hedwig? I am planning to have a really good time, is my point, although as always I am anxious about being in a city (or in this case The City, as the NYC natives I knew in college would say, with audible capitals) because I am a country mouse and find large cities mysterious and terrifying. But sometimes going out of my comfort zone is worth it, and this is one of those times. :D

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I just saw Chiwetel Ejiofor as Everyman in Carol Ann Duffy's new adaptation of a 15th c. morality play. I would not describe it as one of the best theatrical experiences of my life, but it was certainly one of the most awesomely surreal. Plus: great design, and great use of the Olivier space.

(God is a cleaning lady! I love Carol Ann Duffy.)

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I'm in London! The process of getting here turned out to be fraught -- the short version is that I missed my connecting flight due to weather, was stranded in Chicago for a full 24 hours, and spent a total of 44 hours in transit -- but hey, I'm here now. And I've already had tapas and HobNobs (...not at the same time) and seen Imelda Staunton in Gypsy, so things are looking up.

I'll have internet access while traveling, but I don't expect to use it much except for occasional email checks; I may try to post if anything especially delightful happens (or I may save it all up until I get home), but I will not be reading my DW/LJ reading lists with any regularity, let alone checking Tumblr. So email me if something's going on that I need to know about, and otherwise... See you in a couple of weeks. :D

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From The Nation: "Born in a Galilee village later destroyed by the Israeli army, Mahmoud Darwish lived for years in exile in Beirut and Paris before returning to Palestine in 1996. The most widely translated modern Arab poet, Darwish died in 2008."

And We Love Life

And we love life if we find a way to it.
We dance in between martyrs and raise a minaret for violet or palm trees.

We love life if we find a way to it.
And we steal from the silkworm a thread to build a sky and fence in this departure.
We open the garden gate for the jasmine to step out on the streets as a beautiful day.

We love life if we find a way to it.

And we plant, where we settle, some fast growing plants, and harvest the dead.
We play the flute like the color of the faraway, sketch over the dirt corridor a neigh.
We write our names one stone at a time, O lightning brighten the night.

We love life if we find a way to it...


— Mahmoud Darwish
translated from the Arabic by Fady Joudah
Originally published in The Nation, September 15, 2008
Reprinted in the 150th Anniversary Special Issue [more info] [free PDF of full issue]

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Enchantée won the 2015 Kingsley Tufts poetry award: $100,000 (no, that's not a typo) awarded to a mid-career poet.
Revision

When the pasta is badly broken, we eat
maltagliati, and once we think
the risotto is done, we must still
make it creamy, mantecare. Because it was
never finished, Proust kept writing
in the margins of his drafts, and when
they were full, pasted small pieces of paper,
paperoles unfurling from the page as if

it had wings, could be released on parole
with a promise of words. The past, he claimed,
is hidden in some material object of which
we have no inkling
, just as scientists maintain
that because a memory is altered each time
it's recalled, the original memory is the one

we can't know. In Michelangelo's crosshatching

and chiseling, the two-dimensional slowly
becomes three by the same math used
in the sentence The royal We lives
in Synecdoche, New York
. But since when
is a sentence ever innocent? Phoebes
still wag from the wires like words we meant

to say, and Michelangelo's Prisoners
remain locked in stone because
we can’t remember that they were
ever free. But if we have to misremember
in order to recall, what must we do
to forget? At the end of June, cabbage leaves begin
curving in toward one another. Soon they will
bury their head in their many hands.


— Angie Estes
from Enchantée

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What I want to be doing right now:
  • gardening
  • vidding
  • sitting on my couch with a cat on my lap


What I should be doing right now:
  • writing 900 words on an important project (which, because it's me, means writing 3,000 words and then trying to find the 900 right words buried in there somewhere)
  • writing 2,000 words on a different important project (see above)


What I am actually doing right now:
  • sulking


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I am finally, finally fighting my way out from under a two-month crush of work obligations. I mean, I still have work obligations, but I should start having time for other things again as well. A few days ago I found some time to start weeding my strawberry patch; tomorrow I expect to be able to spend the whole afternoon in the garden. It's an immense relief.

In recent weeks, I've found myself very grateful for Tumblr, which allows me to dip into fandom a few minutes at a time without making me feel like I ought to be Doing Something. I have also been super-grateful for fic, and especially for the AO3, which, because of its ebook download formats, has allowed me to load up my e-reader with favorite fic over the last few years.

Reading has been one of my favorite things to do for most of my life, but when I'm as busy and exhausted as I've been lately, reading is actually difficult -- not just because it's hard for me to focus (though yes) but also because I usually read novels, and I usually read before bed, and when I am tired and worn out and start reading a novel before bed I either fall asleep on the book with the light on, which is not good for me (or the book), or else I stay up until 4am because I am so desperate to disappear into the book, which is also not good for me if I have to get up at 6am to resume grading papers or whatever.

I prefer novels to short stories because they're immersive and involving in a way that most short stories are not. What I love about fic -- my favorite fic, the fic I have on my e-reader -- is that even quite short stories are tied into a big universe of character and event and emotion. It's all the emotional scope of a novel with way less time commitment. I have needed that SO MUCH in the last two months, and I am so grateful to have had it. (And also grateful that I have had saved fic to see me through the tsunami of babyfic that has engulfed Glee fandom in the past two months, heh.)

But I've got a novel waiting on the bedside table; I've got the prospect of gardening tomorrow; and I've got approximately eight thousand open tabs, dating back an embarrassing number of weeks, that I might finally be able to start working my way through.

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In his review at Slate, Jonathan Farmer describes Citizen as "one of the best books I've ever wanted not to read," which was pretty much my experience as well. It's painful. It's also brilliant, both as cultural criticism and as poetry. Rankine is insightful and incisive about racism and how it works; she also uses form, especially second person narration, in stunning and (for me) uncomfortable ways.

The book combines multiple genres -- poem, prose poem, essay, together with carefully-chosen images -- into one long multi-part text. Excerpting doesn't do justice to it; it is much, much more than the sum of its individual parts. Some of the book's most striking, even shocking, effects come from picking up stories, images, references, phrases from much earlier in the text, holding them up to the light, making them cast different shadows.

I finished this book more than a week ago. I'm still thinking about it. I suspect I will be thinking about it for a long while.

You are in the dark, in the car, watching the black-tarred street being swallowed by speed; he tells you his dean is making him hire a person of color when there are so many great writers out there.

You think maybe this is an experiment and you are being tested or retroactively insulted or you have done something that communicates this is an okay conversation to be having.

Why do you feel comfortable saying this to me? You wish the light would turn red or a police siren would go off so you could slam on the brakes, slam into the car ahead of you, fly forward so quickly both your faces would suddenly be exposed to the wind.

As usual you drive straight through the moment with the expected backing off of what was previously said. It is not only that confrontation is headache-producing; it is also that you have a destination that doesn't include acting like this moment isn't inhabitable, hasn't happened before, and the before isn't part of the now as the night darkens and the time shortens between where we are and where we are going.


— Claudia Rankine
from Citizen: An American Lyric


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Someday I will be done with grading! Alas, today is not that day. Nor, for that matter, is any day this week going to be that day. (I am so tired of grading. So, so tired.)

The number of tabs I have open is getting totally out of control -- I check DW/LJ/Tumblr etc. for a quick break and end up stashing half the posts I see in my "read later" tab group. Ahahaha. *weeps* I may have to quit browsing my circle/list/dash and instead start going through the backlog of open tabs and commenting; I think that might actually make me feel more tapped in than trying to keep up with new posts.

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